I’m not usually one to write New Year’s resolutions. They’re too much like goals, and I don’t do goals either. I think it’s because of my perfectionist tendencies—if I don’t think I can do something perfectly, I might not try it at all. If I make a resolution and then don’t stick to it, or set a goal and don’t achieve it, I’ve failed. And I can’t have that now, can I?
After our guests left last week and I got sick, I spent a lot of time lying around like a slug. Not only did it give me time to think, but in a strange way it also motivated me. By Monday, I just wanted to do something. I’ve decided what that something is, and I think I’m even making a little resolution here. And I’m putting it on the internet. This is a big step for me, people!
I’m definitely in quadrant 2 right now—I’m well aware of my deficiencies when it comes to so many aspects of creating an image. And I want to get better. I want to get to the point where I can think through a shoot and figure out how to improve the outcome, before I even pick up the camera. I want to be able to walk into someone’s home to take pictures of their kid/dog/Christmas tree, assess the light and the space, and confidently make decisions about how I should handle it. I want to develop my skills so I can more easily build a rapport with my subjects and help them relax in front of the camera.
I’ve taken some pretty good photos in the past, but I’ve been relying on the camera to make a lot of the decisions for me (I usually shoot in aperture mode with the flash in iTTL mode). Trial and error is also a big part of my current “method,” and sheer numbers factor in too. I take a LOT of pictures—you only see a very small fraction of them.
Could I repeat the good shots if I had to? I don’t know . . . maybe. I need to understand how to control all the aspects of exposure manually, so that I control the final image. (You see, we perfectionists also tend to have control freak tendencies.) If I know what I’m doing and I’m in control of all aspects, I should be able to repeat the good shots. Every time.
So there you have it. My first-ever resolution. Happy New Year!